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temris @ 2025-10-01T21:30:00

2025-10-01T18:45:51Z

Üniversitenin 2. senesine başlamış bulunmaktayım. Yolun yarısının yarısındayız diyebilirim :P

Hala her gün o sınıflarda otururken oraya ait değilmişim hissini üzerinden atmam için fazlaca uğraş veriyorum. Ama yapacağım. Artık geri dönmek yok.

Bunun dışında, okul yeniden başlayana kadar yazın başladığım Assassin's Creed: Origins'i bitirmeye çalışmıştım, ve iki DLCsi ile birlikte tamamladım. Biraz boş zamanım olursa hakkındaki düşüncelerimi bu blogda da paylaşmayı istiyorum.

Benedictine keşişli aşk hikayeme de facto bir ara vermek zorunda kaldım. Ona da bir ara döneceğim. Yazın sonlarına doğru hikayenin gidişatı ile ilgili büyük bir sıkıntı yaşamıştım ama şimdi hallettim gibi. Özellikle Türkçe yazmış olmam da ayrı birkaç sıkıntıyı beraberinde getiriyor, çünkü çoğu monastic terimin karşılığını bulamıyorum; buluyorsam da genelde başka bir anlamda daha kullanıldığını görüyorum. Aynı zamanda yayınlayabileceğim bir platform olduğunu da zannetmiyorum ama bir şeyler yapmaya çalışacağız. "Zaten daha o aşamaya gelene kadar ohoooo" diyerek kendimi geçiştiriyorum şu sıralar.

Bir de mevsim değişikliğinin en çok hasarını gördüğümüz aylardayız. Özellikle şu haftada öyle bir değişik ilerliyor ki. Bir gün güneş ve rüzgarsız, sonraki gün tüm gün yağmur. Bakalım.

Dün Liverpool ile Galatasaray maçı yapıldı ve biz yendik. Yeterince mutlu olamadım doğrusu... 28 Ocak Man City var...

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Fanfiction prose and whatnot

2025-06-18T17:15:00Z

It's not news that to the mainstream eye, fanfiction is usually thought to be either just porn, or Mary Sue self-inserts -- which is of course "so cringe". And therefore, whatever is written there is automatically bad. The other day, someone retweeted a TikTok user's post, mocking fanfiction readers for thinking that there can be very good written sentences in fanfiction, and quotes were filled with people pointing to the "worst examples" in the replies of OP's TikTok.

This has been a long discourse that I think has gone through enough talking points, so it's tiring to see it resurface almost every few months. What I've seen, though, it's people who do not create hold this belief that published (non-indie) work is the only kind of work that has any sort of literary value; and this automatically makes fanfiction, in their eyes, lesser. I feel like this is part of a result where every piece of media they consume is curated by either following through classics only -- not particularly bad in itself -- or just picking whatever is trending; and instead of trying to understand why they're considered a classic or a good piece of work, they equate being put on a higher regard to it being popular. (I guess this is a problem that we can see in other fields as well?)

Majority of the people in the fandom spaces were supportive, of course. We have to remember that this is just a fan space and none of the authors of these transformative works are trying to write the next classic, so there's an expectancy of mediocrity. And when the writing is above such level, it piques interest.

I also think this kind of outlook, the looking down of "fanfiction prose" is a part of the way people view some sort of art space I feel as quite pretentious. It just never bodes well with me --- that kind of huge paragraphs with long descriptive sentences, filled with the thesaurus equals of usual adjectives just for the sake of sounding literary (don't know if that's the right word exactly in English); rather than trying to make a good story. (It was one of the reasons why I couldn't read Pandora by Anne Rice when I picked it up this year, but shh.) This is something that repulses me especially in Turkish literature where every writer who does that is immediately seen as the next big thing. (Don't even get me started on the book titles...)

I feel like the mocking was halfly done as a reaction to this pretentiousness, which I can see their POV too partially. But in contrast to published space, nearly every fanfiction is written for the sake of the author themselves anyway, so there has never been the need to please anyone with their high-spoken language. What irritates me (and most of the QRTs I've seen) is when these people think lines in the same wavelength are actually good when they're by traditionally done authors.

Maybe it's something that's been said a million times, but even a self-insert story can be a classic to their eyes when the critiques say so --- say for example, MC gets to isekai-d, along with their favorite man from Antiquity and travel together... It's only a literary masterpiece if the MC self-insert is Dante, because why?

There's a reason why this example has been given many times, because most people don't even view it as fanfiction... Then where exactly do we draw the line?

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temris @ 2025-01-13T21:17:00

2025-01-13T18:38:08Z

Finals are finally over, and I understand what y'all were complaining about all this time... It can really be that deep 😔

While I was battling my exam demons, I realized lots of people participated and sent many entries for various challenges here and it's been a delight to read them today. I would have loved to join for some of them, but I probably can't commit to it much - and when I can't participate well enough in something I promised to take part in, I feel guilty and as if I don't belong there.

It's only been two days since I've been free, but I was able to draw again. I still have lots of wips waiting to be finished. Besides that, I also continued to write that Chreon fic that's been cooking for so long (that it's basically burnt to death atp ??).

I also played Kingdom Come: Deliverance after MONTHS. Unfortunately, the motion sickness is still a problem for me, even after I've added many mods to fix as much as I can. I now added a new FOV mod, and even if that doesn't help, I'm just going to give up. It's literally so, so bad. I have to take a break every 30 mins, my head gets dizzy and I feel like puking. It makes me so sad because I loved the concept, and the game even with its flaws. Henry and Hans were so cute ;_; But I guess, just like RE6, I'll just have to shelve them it seems.

THEY SHARED A BATHTUB GUYS. I cannot stress this enough. (Warhorse was just scared of their gayness so they made them take a bath in their shifts SMH.) Just where is Hans looking at anyway?

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Some WW1 related terminology, and other things

2024-12-06T15:33:18Z

A little background: I'm currently writing a WW1-related fanfiction, that's supposed to be practice for an actual story I've been building on my mind. I've had consumed a lot of documentaries, non-fiction text, and also movies about it, but since I'm writing fiction I thought it would be good to read some of the best examples first. I was lucky enough to find that the library had "All Quiet on the Western Front" in English, and took notes while I was reading it to find the war/army-related terms in English. I hope it would be helpful for others as well, so I'm posting it here.

! Not all of them are totally related to war, but I noted down nearly every word that would be useful to get the feeling of that time/era.

!! I'll try to update this when I read more and need to note down more terms :)

( Glossary )

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