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Thursday, 15 August 2024 02:49 pmI'm opening the book for education once again after many years. From the beginning of this year, until about the half of May; I put myself through a very intensive studying schedule. I'm not going to lie, I didn't do a half-bad. Like I mentioned it on here before, I only studied for TYT and I think my rank was alright for studying that short of a period.
Choosing the major was harder than studying, like it was for me many years ago where I went through the same path. "Computer Programming", a two-year online course with full scholarship -- that was my intention from the start; from the first time I actually started studying for the exam again, I told myself it would be the best diploma for me. I tried getting into programming, but it was more of a hobby for me and I couldn't pursue it long enough -- the constant financial worries often block me from getting into anything.
Well... That's literally why I put on my mind to get a diploma after all.
I mean, in this day of age, and in my country, it's hard to get a job that's not a work that should be done by three different people, or a proper wage for the hours you put in; but I could only do translating jobs for a foreign company because in here, everyone asks for you to graduate from a university. So I said "f--- this life of misery, I'm going to get that diploma". We'll see if I can manage it and not drop out in the first week like before !! 😂
That's right... In the end, I chose "English Language Teaching". Quite different from where I started, and I could have gotten into the programming one very easily. I changed my mind at the very last second and wrote in the closest school to my accomodation. One of the reasons why I hated going to my old university was that it took me about 2 hours of traffic, WITH PUBLIC TRANSPORT MIGHT I ADD, to reach there!
Another reason is because computer programming would not be too different from what I already do -- I have to work as a freelancer before getting into a company, making some projects on my own to build my CV, my name and also to practice too. And it's been long ago that I actually had that kind of luxury, where I can spend time freely. I've filled my quota on that one.
ELT sounded the most logical (after I literally ate my brains out for two weeks) because even if I can't make it to the public schools after graduating, I can maybe work for private schools or weekend courses at the very least -- I know the conditions won't even compare to the ones I would get from public ones but at least... I'll have a bit of financial securicy; I want to hope for that.
I won't lie. Being the anxious wreck I am, I'm so scared to start over with so many strangers around me. Not to mention, most of those strangers are going to be teenagers -- I'm too old for this! 😠Every day, I think that I'm not built for this. But I don't have much choice, because I had about enough of this household. THIS IS FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH!!
So yeah... Wish me luck :P
(I really can't imagine myself as a teacher! 😠Maybe I'll try for interpreting for a while too... We'll see, we'll see...)
Choosing the major was harder than studying, like it was for me many years ago where I went through the same path. "Computer Programming", a two-year online course with full scholarship -- that was my intention from the start; from the first time I actually started studying for the exam again, I told myself it would be the best diploma for me. I tried getting into programming, but it was more of a hobby for me and I couldn't pursue it long enough -- the constant financial worries often block me from getting into anything.
Well... That's literally why I put on my mind to get a diploma after all.
I mean, in this day of age, and in my country, it's hard to get a job that's not a work that should be done by three different people, or a proper wage for the hours you put in; but I could only do translating jobs for a foreign company because in here, everyone asks for you to graduate from a university. So I said "f--- this life of misery, I'm going to get that diploma". We'll see if I can manage it and not drop out in the first week like before !! 😂
That's right... In the end, I chose "English Language Teaching". Quite different from where I started, and I could have gotten into the programming one very easily. I changed my mind at the very last second and wrote in the closest school to my accomodation. One of the reasons why I hated going to my old university was that it took me about 2 hours of traffic, WITH PUBLIC TRANSPORT MIGHT I ADD, to reach there!
Another reason is because computer programming would not be too different from what I already do -- I have to work as a freelancer before getting into a company, making some projects on my own to build my CV, my name and also to practice too. And it's been long ago that I actually had that kind of luxury, where I can spend time freely. I've filled my quota on that one.
ELT sounded the most logical (after I literally ate my brains out for two weeks) because even if I can't make it to the public schools after graduating, I can maybe work for private schools or weekend courses at the very least -- I know the conditions won't even compare to the ones I would get from public ones but at least... I'll have a bit of financial securicy; I want to hope for that.
I won't lie. Being the anxious wreck I am, I'm so scared to start over with so many strangers around me. Not to mention, most of those strangers are going to be teenagers -- I'm too old for this! 😠Every day, I think that I'm not built for this. But I don't have much choice, because I had about enough of this household. THIS IS FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH!!
So yeah... Wish me luck :P
(I really can't imagine myself as a teacher! 😠Maybe I'll try for interpreting for a while too... We'll see, we'll see...)
