[sticky entry] Sticky: Me and my journal

Thursday, 19 September 2024 02:25 pm
temris: (Default)
I think it's time I do this!

Hello everyone who took their time to check out my journal. As the text on my sidebar reads, this journal is mostly about me and my thoughts. I started this journal with one intention only: To put my emotions down to words, of events that aren't too important for my physical diary, or if it's a quick rant that I don't have anybody to share it with.

So yeah! If I subbed to you, that's probably because I found the posts available to view on your journal interesting, and I'd love to see more; but don't ever feel obligated to return with a subscription yourself. ❤ Don't hesitate to subscribe to my journal if you feel the same way, but I write here like I'm writing a diary most of the time, so be aware of that haha!
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Madness?

Sunday, 6 September 2026 03:06 pm
temris: (madness)
I seriously neglected writing here, but it's because since the start of July, I've been in an extensive schedule I've set for myself.

1. Study Latin and Spanish first.
2. Write my novel.

For Spanish, I was trying to finish an easier book so I could remember grammar rules. I've literally finished it about a month ago... Now I'm studying on a reading book but very leisurely. For Latin, it goes and comes back to me.

For the novel... Where should I even start? I set out to write it as a very standard, very mundane romance story... but then I couldn't. So now I'm on the second editing stage. It will probably go on for the fourth. Until then, yeah, I can't get myself to do anything else.

Semester starts in a week, too. I will go insane, it looks like. I will lose my hair.
temris: (troll)
I know. I've seriously neglected this meme, so I'm back!! And you know what, I'm just going to post the most predictable one so far.


#2 - Solid Snake from Metal Gear


Is there even a possible way to describe how important he was to me just a few years ago? Though I have so many problems with Kojima's views and writing, Snake is one of the few good things he's created. I think later on he's messed him up too much, just like the Metal Gear series and I don't want to ruin this post about him with my annoyance with Kojima here. I just wanted to mention this, because while I cannot bear looking at anything MG for a good two years and more, Snake (he is THE Snake to me) is still one of my favorite characters.

He's been through hell multiple times, and even still he tries to save the world. Is there a more attractive trait a character can have?
Not to mention he looks SO GOOD doing it. 😌✨ I've deliberately put my favorite look of him, that's in MGS2 as Iroquois Pliskin. I think this longer, Snake Plissken hair fits him so well! I love the earlier, MG2:SS short hair Dave as well, though, and that game is my second favorite in the series between the games I've played (I can't play MGS3 bc I don't own a PS3, and V is just... meh I don't want to).

His lines touched my heart in that game. Especially this part.
 

It is also why I just can't bring myself to enjoy playing Big Boss before he WAS BB or whatever. I just don't really care about him. To me Snake is Solid Snake. And he always will be. 💕

Between the way he talks and the way he acts, is it a wonder that so many women fell for him, as well as Otacon? If he also came up to me like that, saved my life, SAVED THE WORLD, I would also do anything to be with him LMAO.

( Hallucinations )

DMC Over

Friday, 10 July 2026 02:49 pm
temris: (guti yearning)
After a very long time, I finally started playing DMC5 (for clarity I will refer it with 5 instead of V) last week and just finished it.
Apparently, I've finished 4 all the way back in March 2023 which is CRAZY. I swear, I remember it being more recent, but for real, days lately are very similar to each other, and you don't realize how quickly time passes. (I also saw that I played the reboot DMC in 2025 too) Safe to say, it's been a minute since I remember the story, though imo, it never was a strong point in the series.

I remember having a lot of fun playing Nero, but I couldn't say the same thing when playing this iteration. There's a new gimmick, more like it's the core of the gameplay for Nero, that his arm is now robot parts and has to be changed often. It's very annoying, the powers given to different arms aren't that interesting. I also think they limited the reach of his arm which just was my favorite thing (to pull the enemies!) so I was annoyed, and had to get used to it very slowly.

I don't even know where to start with this game... so I'll try the "graphics". I hate realistic looking characters so much in video games. (Which is why I'm so tired of facial capture they keep doing with new releases. Why would I be excited for seeing some actor/model in a video game like I'm being shaken keys in front of my eyes?) I'm just going to say it lol. We see the reality already, I want to see hot bishounens, baras (if possible). I don't want to see ugly white men! Nero looks completely different just as Trish does. I think Nico and Nero have it worst because the creepy, uncanny facial expressions they make IS SO DISGUSTING to look at. Nero always has this grimace on his lips and Nico--I've no idea.

Next in graphics, let's talk about the environment design. BORING AF! It was not pretty to look at, nor scary to feel the "pressure" so to speak. My sibling, whose only DMC experience was the first game, was like "This is DMC? It looks nothing like it."

Now, I understand people want change, but I AM MAYBE NOT ONE OF THEM IF IT LOOKS LIKE THIS BRUH. For me DMC always had that gothic vibe to it, where we'd go to these "European" cities Americans think of, and crawl through some mysterious places. The whole game was like a callback to the first one and they brought back crawling inside monsters OUT OF EVERYTHING -____- Bring back FLYING!!!!

I've always said DMC is so edgy but the EDGE in this game. I tell you all... it's so much worse. When (Spoilers) Nero gets his DT for the first time he throws off a middle finger bro I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD BC IT'S SO CRINGE. Same with the songs... I said this before too, but I never enjoy the DMC soundtracks, especially starting from 3 they started to stick to a certain sound that's just boring to listen. I MISS THE ORGANS FROM DMC2...

It just looks so modern (the robot arm is driving my point further)...

STORY. I keep saying the same thing, but I never liked the story aspect in DMC. This one was even worse, because the main point is like "Woww V's so mysterious!!! What's his plan??? Who is heeee???" when it's just so obvious. Guy didn't even bother thinking another initial. Are all the characters idiots or did the writers actually expect us to be that stupid? (I swear, when you're fighting one of the Angelos, you can literally hear it's dubbed by V's VA.) So the whole game you're just waiting for a reveal you already know, making it very tedious to play.

Another aspect made worse because of this is the gameplay. You cannot take two steps before the camera pans somewhere and we have to hear some silly lines. I SWEAR IT HAPPENS EVERY TWO MINUTES, sometimes even shorter! I get into a fight for a bit, and the game is just like "Okay, that's enough! Look at these ugly roots! You see them? Okay, now you can walk." then IT HAPPENS AGAIN AND AGAIN!
 
I'll give credit where it's due: V's battle mechanics. At first I thought it'd be difficult to play with him considering he doesn't really enter the battle himself, it is very fun to control demons to do the fighting for you. I think it was really interesting and I don't remember any other game where a similar mechanic was used.

Another con for the story aspect: I am fed up with them bringing Vergil back. I understand he's a popular character but this must be like the third time the story revolves around him??? And his reasons get sillier and sillier. The dude fights his son at this point. LET IT GO UNC!!!

There are more things that makes the overall playthrough a boring and annoying one...

like I just remembered: the girls all waiting for the boys to do the job -- except for one time where they were fighting at the other side while waiting for Dante or something -- and Dante afterwards telling them "omg go away and be safe 😔" it just felt so??? Idk so backwards? 😭😭 ++ Why are you giving us them if they don't matter to the story? THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS GAME. Being so deep down the series, you have all these characters that people love, and just to please them all, you bring them all back FOR NO REASON AT ALL (maybe to sell them as DLC... Capcom I'm tired!). You can tell they're only there to serve the purpose of making fans go "AH SHE'S THERE!! HE'S THERE!!" because Capcom has completely locked Lucia in the basements...

EDIT: This is INSANE AHAHAHAH I thought Lady and Trish would be playable, but they're apparently NOT LMFAOOOO it's worse than I thought!!

I'm just sad that the last game I'll remember in this series will be this disappointing one. 🤷‍♀️

I'm not dead post

Monday, 22 June 2026 11:48 pm
temris: (deep thoughts)
Okay... it's been hectic since the half of May, bc I studied so hard for the finals, and then it was Eid, then it was the finals weeks... and then immediately after that, I set out to make a hand-drawn animation ON PAPER. I'm almost done with it, but it took me 1,5 weeks to draw ALONE... I only finished one or two books in the meantime. Haven't written anything in so long, except for a one-shot that was done to detox from all that stress (which didn't work).

Now, it will only get worse because of something happening in the house..... And I'm just SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING.

I want to read, to study languages again, I WANT TO WRITE MY WIPS. But I can't do ANYTHING.

(no subject)

Wednesday, 6 May 2026 10:25 pm
temris: (guti yearning)
I don't think I'll be buying a new graphics tablet. That thing was probably the only reason why I convinced myself that I could draw. Maybe it stopping working is a hayır, and now I can for real give up on art. I still can't help myself and doodle, sketch; because that's all I know what to do, just like old men going out on walks with a full suit on a weekday noon. I have never learned otherwise...

Besides, I still have my colored pencils, pens, inkpens and all my traditional art tools I have ignored mostly. I can use them now if I really need to draw. And who knows? Maybe I can actually manage it. With the way AI is ruining what we love(d), traditional feels like a safe haven.
temris: (blehhh)
 Another post for the Fannish 50 after 84 years, yay!

I am done with midterms, and we only had one day before my classes started again, which was horrible for my mental health LOL but I feel rejuvenated this weekend. For some strange reason, I actually have some plans for the near (very near) future that I have motivation for! This is great for me and I just wanted to share it.

As I have guessed, I have not been very well at posting for the Fannish 50 lately. I have some free time now, so I decided to talk about another movie today.

#3 - The Knight Before Christmas
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First of all, I gave this movie probably like 2 stars out of 5, at most. But I cannot not watch it every December. It's actually not even that good, especially the second half; but whenever I just get this craving for a medieval knight, I find myself turning this on again.

There's a scene in a café that makes me laugh every single time I see it, that is caused by the changing semantics between time periods that I love so much xD One thing that annoys me is that he leaves his medieval clothing too early, like before even half of the movie! And Vanessa Hudgens (I have no idea what her character was called, but I do remember the male lead was called Cole, thus giving us 'Sir Cole' which, to be honest, sounds like a joke Philomena Cunk would make.) dresses him in the most bland 21st century male clothing I've seen...
WHICH IS SAD. Because he looks so good in a medieval shift!!

I also liked the fact that they didn't go with late medieval years where he'd have to be clad in full plate armor, and we saw chainmail armor! I am an avid enjoyer of 10--12th century armors and it is not the first thing people think of when someone mentions medieval armor. (See for it yourself, the next time you stumble upon a medieval knight drawing a mainstream artist draws, and it will be plate armor.) It is nice to see it, even if it's not the best thing, they still tried!

As always, it is the valiance and gentlemanly nature in traditional masculinity that I find so endearing in the guy. It is not the best movie, but it is at least entertaining.

(no subject)

Friday, 27 March 2026 02:33 pm
temris: (agony)
 Midterms start this Monday! I feel weirdly at ease this time around, I don't know if this will bring me misfortune LOL but idk?? I feel like this semester, most of my classes were easier, and I am taking two classes from 3rd year! Praying for my success...🤲

Other than that, I've finished reading Jane Eyre a few days ago, but I am SOOOO obsessed with it still. IT WAS SO GOOD and I'm glad that I haven't read it as a child, because I don't think I would have appreciated it enough, nor would I have gotten the references, the implicit messages, THE ROMANCE. And children's editions usually are abridged, you know! ANYWAY I love Jane's character so so much, I related to her so often -- being ugly, being an artist, thinking you're unfit for being loved, stuff like that -- but also really envied how strong she is, how resilient she always were; which is why Mr. Rochester fell in love with her 😭😭 AHH THEY ARE JUST PERFECT TOGETHER, OKAY?!?!

And some bad news: My graphics tablet that I bought a few years ago gave up on me... It technically works, but for like 30 secs max, before it disconnects itself. After a series of experiments, I decided the cause is the USB-C port on the tablet itself. So I can't fix it... The warranty is also passed, and I can't find from which website I had bought it either. :/
Thing is, I had bought an Android tablet about a month ago, and I can draw on it BUT AGAIN, TECHNICALLY, because drawing on these things are more difficult than I remember??

I DID start out digital art using an iPad, then did most of it on another Android tablet,, but it seems it has been too long and my skills have receded. I already feel too conscious of my art skills, and this just made it worse... SO I can't draw anything.... I doodle a bit on my notebooks in class to NOT COMPLETELY FORGET IT, but yeah, it's what it is. I am once again forced to draw traditionally.

Meh

Saturday, 21 March 2026 03:17 pm
temris: (kiryu annoyed)
It's Eid right now, and I have exams after a week. I had picked up a Turkish translation of the Iliad earlier this month and managed to finish it yesterday, but it was very boring. I'm not someone who gets bored easily when I'm reading something "historical". With this work I guess I was wrong.

I'll share here my review I've posted on Goodreads.

( Review )

I am stupid

Saturday, 14 March 2026 04:39 pm
temris: (deep thoughts)
I usually never do "anniversary" artwork. Across the many fandoms I've been in, I probably have posted a birthday celebration artwork probably once, if any. Because I know I can't make it in time...

Since this semester has a really bad schedule, I barely could find time to do any of my hobbies. That's why I told myself, I'll do this animation idea whenever I have time, so it would take some time, but I could do it little by little!
Then. I realized..... the Ides of March approaching.

The animation I've drafted is about Brutus & Caesar..... so I said, "Hey, what if I actually post it on time for ONCE? That would be nice!" and got to focus on it. Now, I'm kind of a hard-working student and I study daily, writing down my notes, studying beforehand etc. all that jazz... and for this animation, I stopped doing them. IT'S BEEN A WEEK! AND I FEEL SO BAD IGNORING ALL MY "WORK" BECAUSE OF THIS ANIMATION GAHHHHH

It's almost over, and AGAIN I barely made it in time!😭

SO IF I EVER THINK IT'S A GOOD IDEA TO MAKE SPECIFIC ART FOR A SPECIFIC DAY
I AIN'T DOING IT

I'm beat

Friday, 20 February 2026 10:57 pm
temris: (deep thoughts)
 I keep saying this but this semester has the worst schedule yet!
One day 08.30 (in which I have to wake up at 4.35), the next 12.30, then a 10.30, then another at midday... So my sleeping schedule is just ruined. And all the lessons except one day, end after 5pm. Bus takes like an hour... Yeah, I'm always beat whenever I arrive home, and barely can study, if any at all.

I have nearly no time for any drawing, or writing, or to do any other hobbies. I hope a few weeks after, after I'm done with some semester-long homeworks, I'll try to write more here. I missed reading my subscribed journals too! -__-

So yeah, that's about it. But Ramazan (Ramadan) has started two nights ago! I still haven't started reading Qur'an though and I feel bad about it... Like I said, I have no time, but I should make time for it tbh.
But I'm watching a new series called Men of Angelos in English, that's about the Seven Sleepers parable, but it's an Iranian series. It was so refreshing to see Romans in Muslim context haha! And the acting of the main characters are mostly great anyway, even if sets are a bit lacklusting. Hadrian has been mentioned too many times but I feel like we aren't going to see him. xD

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