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I knew the day where Thomas will say goodbye to football was approaching, but the more closer we get to that point, it gets harder to accept the truth.


I've never been good at parting ways, this is something I repeat a lot. Thomas has been a player who ever since I watched football, has just always been there. It was even saddening to see his appearances become mere minutes the last few seasons at Bayern. I also talked about my thoughts on his contract renewals at that club.

I've also never called myself a Bayern fan, I usually do not like teams that "dominate" their leagues. I know it's kind of a deadbeat saying now, "Serie A is the best because the championship is actually a race", but it's true. Last year, with Tuchel it seemed like a new domination of Leverkusen was coming; however, with nearly 10 points of difference with the occupiers of the 1st spot in the standings (as of 20 April), I think that wind has passed away some time ago.

The weather has been swinging between cold and hot these past few days. I went out to the further sections of the city where I usually don't go to, went on a boat and visited some 15th century mosques today; but the wind has gotten to my already-kind-of-allergy-sick body. Right now, I'm feeling a bit dizzy, and it won't be surprising to feel feverish soon. I popped up some ibuprofen but still.

Also, I bought a Spanish grammar book for ₺200+ than it's worth on website. I don't know why I did it. This is a huge problem I have with myself. When a shopkeeper talks with me, and spends their time listening to me, I feel inclined to buy whatever. I actually didn't buy the book on the website because I thought it was too expensive !! LIKE??

From the start of the day, everything that could go wrong went wrong: No bread in the morning, dropped my wallet, the ATM sucked up my card, I tried to call my sister 15 times (to confirm if what I'd bought for her was accurate) and she wouldn't respond, and then I cried. After that, when that bookshop keeper talked with me, I think that's got to do with that...

I have midterms after eid break, I feel kind of ready, but I missed drawing digitally. Thinking of opening comms after, and I gave a promise to a friend from school that I will show her around the city since it's her first time here! Hopefully that will go well.

I was thinking about Augustus -- as I do often 😭. I've been rotating him on my mind ever since his character reveal for Civ7. It's kind of funny, because while being very interested in history ever since I've known myself, I've never been too into Ancient Rome stuff. (Leaving that story away for another time.) Anyway, I felt like I needed to write down something to show my appreciation for Roddy McDowall's performance in Cleopatra (1963).

Among all the adaptations of him I've seen; I think Roddy McDowall's portrayal is still the best one. He just gives that annoying little b-tch energy just so well. I can't explain it otherwise. His dialogue is also written accordingly. I LOVE the scene where he talks with Cleopatra and says sth like, "You need not bow your head before Caesar". THAT'S JUST SO HIM HAHAA.

And apparently, he was supposed to be nominated for the Best Supporting Actor, but FOX fumbled and accidentally sent his name for the Best Actor category instead. 🤦‍♀️ Man was robbed.

I finally played this game after years of it waiting for me in my Steam library.

I want to start by complimenting the gameplay. Apparently, it's actually why a lot of people didn't like this game back then, for being "too beginner friendly" or something (my source is a Matt McMuscles video). I always play games on Easy difficulty so LOL. I still feel like it has the basis combo mechanics, nice movesets and different weapons that actually give you the feeling of difference (I usually never even bothered to change weapons in the previous games, yeah 😁).
The arm mechanics (pulling, pushing etc.) from DMC4 was one of the things that made me like that game a lot, so it was nice to see that it's made a comeback in this one as well (minus the arm though).

The story was never something I looked forward to in DMC. This game was supposed to be a reboot of the series, so they took a lot of liberty with it. It's nothing new though, and I think it somehow became even more cliche making them nephilim, and reminiscent of Bayonetta.

Speaking of Bayonetta, earlier in the game, it reminded me a lot of Bayonetta with its environment, and throughout the game -- the whole "Limbo"/"real world" thing really underlined it all. It's not bad or good -- I just got reminded of it. Overall, I liked the look of the places.

I can't say the same about the character models. In general, I find it uncanny valley material when games try to go more realistic; this wasn't that, but... the way they emote was SO WEIRD most of the time.


Also, the constant action movie shaky cam WAS ANNOYING af.


One of the biggest problems I had with this game is caused by its port on Steam I guess. I couldn't play this game when I had my controller connected. I tried many "solutions" online but nothing worked unfortunately. I could have let it go, but the gameplay made me enjoy the game a lot, so I actually finished the whole game with keyboard & mouse.
This brought a lot of problems with it.

• The whole pull & push mechanics are incredibly more obstructive. With sausage-like fingers like mine, it's really a bother to get used to the controls. Though, you can change the whole map I think, so that's good.
• When you're not in a rush, it's fine to try to time your jumping and flying-in-the-air-for-a-short-time-gimmick. But most of the time, I kept falling because I couldn't press the keys CORRECTLY and IN TIME. That was very annoying.

MORE ON CRINGY DIALOGUE. I always found the dialogue in DMC cringy, but it was endearing-cringe. This time, it's annoying-cringe. AND A LOT OF IT. There were also so many scenes for shock value, and "comedy" which made me roll my eyes a lot. Swearing too -- don't forget, this is a MATURE GAME!!!

I liked some of the boss fights, especially the Bob Barbas one I think was very creative. I remembered Kat's existence while looking at the photos to post them so I think it's very telling how the side characters were.

IN SHORT. Nice to play game if you turn off your brain.

Book talk: Going through one of the worst stressful reads in my life, ever. It's been quite a long time since I've felt this much annoyance while reading a book, I swear I'm using all my strength to go through it.

It's a mandatory read for the finals for Turkish Literature class, and while I don't particularly get mad or anything for mandatory reads, this one has such a way of writing that it's so hard to even turn a single page.

Expect a rant post when I finish this. 😭

Life talk: Besides that, I think I'm going through the lessening of motivation near the end of semester"era right now. It's so hard to keep going, and the teenagers get on my nerves a lot lately.

Media talk: I finally managed to finish the first season of Mehmed: Fetihler Sultanı (it took me like months??) and I enjoyed it mostly, it's a lot better than the other Ottoman shows by Turkish media -- less of harem intrigue, more of war and politics. Besides that, I also started to watch HBO's Rome, and it's been alright. I'm so busy that I barely managed to reach the last episode of the first season. I'm so in love with the main lead, Lucius... 😭  He's just so my type...😭