2006 was 5 years ago...
Monday, 11 December 2023 05:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
temrisWait... What do you mean it's been 17 years?
Yesterday, once again, I've found myself delving deep into old Blogger blogs. Both of them I've found while looking for Kaka in glasses pictures π They both belonged to girls, written in 2006-2011s, and I remembered my own teenage years. I'm someone who gets nostalgic very easily, someone that just can't accept reality, and hates the passing of time, and change. Which is why I couldn't also stop myself from reading all their entries. There weren't many, but I could remember the simplicity of their issues, but also the depth of them. It's hard to describe. One of them resonated more with me, because this girl was anxious about leaving her home to start a new life, and how difficult it will be for her. No matter how things have turned out for her, I hope she's happy now.
After that, I wanted to read some old LJs instead.
Thanks to the search options I could find some, but my favorite was a very long post, a manifesto of Cristiano/Kaka ship LOL. I like fanlore.org for this same reason, because it brings me fandom history like barely anything else does. Anyway, it was very funny but I could really understand the reasons behind that ship forming. When I was younger, I was never aware of its existence tbh, and that's something that is really intriguing to me. While you're in one fandom, you deal with (or gleefully ignore) all these inside drama, the events, the lore that happens around you. But there are so many other fandoms that deal with so many things with you knowing 0 about it. Their starts, their issues, their own ends (or the sleepiness of it, I'd like to say. Because there will always be people who are still into that fandom). That's what I feel sad about. Because once upon a time, there were so many people passionate about it.
I searched for a few minutes to find this textpost I've published on Tumblr, dating Sep 1, 2020:
there is something sad about finding old inactive blogs on tumblr and looking at their archive, going through their earlier posts. i can see their enthusiasm back then, and how much they cared about their then-interests; it makes me wonder why they had stopped posting? did they lose their interest or had something else happened? maybe they just forgot their password. if they lost their interest, when will that happen to me i wonder.
It really does illustrate my point better, although this was more about fandom blogs. The way I got invested about that old blogs I mentioned at the beginning were more about feeling similar feelings as a teenager. The way our obsessions were the positives of our days, the one thing that makes us smile and look forward to the next day.
I usually get into fandoms way past their "prime days", so I get this feeling pretty often. Would you call it "sadness of missing out"? π I feel like I've missed the active days of those things happening, the excitement people have felt for these things. It's always nice to be a part of that, and I always miss it.
There's a memory I never forget. I was reading a Superman comic when my aunt came to visit us one day. My cousin teased me about "still reading those at my age" (mind you, I was in high school) and I didn't really get it. I'll probably never will. Why would I stop doing something that I enjoy as long as it's not unhealthy?
It's been years since 2006, but no matter how much time passes, I always seem to find something else to be obsessed about, and the past ones just pile up on each other. That's something I hope that never changes, actually. π
Yesterday, once again, I've found myself delving deep into old Blogger blogs. Both of them I've found while looking for Kaka in glasses pictures π They both belonged to girls, written in 2006-2011s, and I remembered my own teenage years. I'm someone who gets nostalgic very easily, someone that just can't accept reality, and hates the passing of time, and change. Which is why I couldn't also stop myself from reading all their entries. There weren't many, but I could remember the simplicity of their issues, but also the depth of them. It's hard to describe. One of them resonated more with me, because this girl was anxious about leaving her home to start a new life, and how difficult it will be for her. No matter how things have turned out for her, I hope she's happy now.
After that, I wanted to read some old LJs instead.
Thanks to the search options I could find some, but my favorite was a very long post, a manifesto of Cristiano/Kaka ship LOL. I like fanlore.org for this same reason, because it brings me fandom history like barely anything else does. Anyway, it was very funny but I could really understand the reasons behind that ship forming. When I was younger, I was never aware of its existence tbh, and that's something that is really intriguing to me. While you're in one fandom, you deal with (or gleefully ignore) all these inside drama, the events, the lore that happens around you. But there are so many other fandoms that deal with so many things with you knowing 0 about it. Their starts, their issues, their own ends (or the sleepiness of it, I'd like to say. Because there will always be people who are still into that fandom). That's what I feel sad about. Because once upon a time, there were so many people passionate about it.
I searched for a few minutes to find this textpost I've published on Tumblr, dating Sep 1, 2020:
there is something sad about finding old inactive blogs on tumblr and looking at their archive, going through their earlier posts. i can see their enthusiasm back then, and how much they cared about their then-interests; it makes me wonder why they had stopped posting? did they lose their interest or had something else happened? maybe they just forgot their password. if they lost their interest, when will that happen to me i wonder.
It really does illustrate my point better, although this was more about fandom blogs. The way I got invested about that old blogs I mentioned at the beginning were more about feeling similar feelings as a teenager. The way our obsessions were the positives of our days, the one thing that makes us smile and look forward to the next day.
I usually get into fandoms way past their "prime days", so I get this feeling pretty often. Would you call it "sadness of missing out"? π I feel like I've missed the active days of those things happening, the excitement people have felt for these things. It's always nice to be a part of that, and I always miss it.
There's a memory I never forget. I was reading a Superman comic when my aunt came to visit us one day. My cousin teased me about "still reading those at my age" (mind you, I was in high school) and I didn't really get it. I'll probably never will. Why would I stop doing something that I enjoy as long as it's not unhealthy?
It's been years since 2006, but no matter how much time passes, I always seem to find something else to be obsessed about, and the past ones just pile up on each other. That's something I hope that never changes, actually. π
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Date: Saturday, 23 December 2023 03:53 pm (UTC)Saving pages on the Internet Archive is so important for this reason! Every time I get into an old fandom, I always end up on the archived pages... I'm so grateful for it.
I never would have guessed I'd say this, but deviantArt could be the only good thing to search for old fanarts right now. Youtube also deletes a lot of old videos for no reason too, we're losing a big chunk of internet history. :/
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Date: Saturday, 23 December 2023 05:22 pm (UTC)